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I turned my biggest fear into a beautiful vision for my life.

At 11 yrs old, I was in bed staring at the dark ceiling and I had my first ever panic attack while considering the meaning of death. I just kept thinking, \"nothing. nothing, nothing, nothing.\" The idea that everything that was so important to me would eventually turn into nothing, was too much for my 11 yr old brain to handle.

I became obsessed with documenting, saving, & creating things with meaning. Grease stained lunch notes, home video stills, and creating immersive installations dedicated to loved ones present & passed-I viewed everything through a nostalgic lens. I saw through the current state and into the sentimental core of it all. I received my BFA in Photography and continued living my life with a deep desire to make it count & not miss it. (whatever \"it \" was)

In 2021, the death of my beloved dog, my first real loss in life, confirmed that the work I had been creating and my process for living it served a higher and an infinitely more expansive purpose. Grief, comfort, love, self discovery- I didn't find refuge in grand, polished places. I found what I needed in the chronicles of my seemingly mundane nothingness. There is was, the whole time. I knew it all along and yet- I needed to be reminded. Don't we always know? Sometimes we all just need reminding.

Since then I have launched a podcast, an intimate membership, education, & photographic commission offerings. All of my work is centered around showing you that your \"nothing\" is really your everything. All you have to do is see.

Join me at the intersection of mindful photographic practice, connecting to your truth, & creative expression so that you can live more of your life on purpose.

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Every Christmas I'm left with the strange remorse of not having achieved this elusive feeling I yearn for.

Surely I'm missing it by looking for it, but I cannot help it.

It's all I've ever known.
This perpetual homesickness for a feeling I've never felt .

I grasp for moments like chasing bubbles.
Only for it to vanish in the moment of contact…

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